something I wonder: do gay girls ghost each other so often because of feelings of inadequacy? I find myself incredibly reluctant to date because I view most women as too good for my bullshit. I feel as if I tried to date one, I would be afflicting myself upon her. I feel as if I want to be a better person for the woman I marry one day, and I don’t know if I’m that person yet. So if a girl gets interested, I get nervous. I think to myself, “If she knew every facet about me, she’d know she deserves better,” so I don’t engage.
Part of me feels like this can’t just be an isolated feeling.
as more and more women relate to this sentiment I kind of want to point out what I said in my tags.
i think this mentality creates an issue where we distance ourselves from others in our community because we’ve created them to be unapproachable due to our own perceived inadequacies. We exalt them as people without problems and struggles of their own, often similar to ours, that they’re sorting through as well.
so I propose that 2018 is the year lesbians and sapphic women absolve themselves of this self hatred. 2018 is the year we learn patience with ourselves. 2018 is the year we look at our struggles and realize they are not isolated, but often shared by other women in our community that we can connect with and support each other through. 2018 is the year gay women learn that there is something in them worth loving; because as we look around and see women out there that we know we will love with our hearts and souls, they will do the same for us.
2018 is the year we learn to love ourselves just as much as we will love the women we want to spend the rest of our lives with.
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