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Queer Black Mom to Be in Need

Yo, my life exploded and this time it is not my fault. 😢

I got pregnant (I planned it with the father who, almost instentaneously afterwards, became abusive) and moved back to Philadelphia after 12 years of living in Kentucky to be closer to family and reduce some stress. Well so much for that.

Here’s my little nugget:

I’m still pregnant, baby and I are fine. This baby is wanted and very much already loved.

However! My two cousins who I was living with are suddenly no longer able to live with me for reasons that are not my business to put on the internet.

I’m still in my family’s home (owned by family) but I am still presently without a steady, viable income. I’ve been very diligently looking for work since I moved back in April and all I’ve found so far are short term temp positions.

I’m currently studying to teach English (I plan to sign up for one of those imperialist work-at-home programs where you teach kids in China online or something similar) but my program is 150 hours, so I won’t be certified for a hot minute.

Anyway, I’m responsible for bills (gas, electric, water). I have to get around to interviews, state required volunteer work for TANF benefits and of course mental health & prenatal apppintments. My home is very old and the walls need to be treated for lead to make a safe environment for my little James Henry.

For now food stamps have my groceries covered! I’m on medicaid so my copays are free!

Additionally, come October, I’m going to have baby needs to pay for. I plan to breastfeed and pump, so at least I won’t have to pay for formula. When winter happens I’ll have to pay for oil heat to keep the house warm if my cousins still haven’t returned by then.

I need help.

If anyone wants to be an angel and gift my baby with a diaper service so he can wear cloth diapers (and professionals can clean them and take them away!) That would knock out one of my hugest future anxieties about being able to maintain for my baby’s needs.

Gift certificates to Philly Diaper Service would be an amazing help.

http://www.phillydiaperservice.com/order-service/new-clients/

I have a baby registry up on amazon (and I’ve scheduled this post for after the strike/prime day is over) and that’s a way to help with baby needs. I would deeply appreciate getting stuff that isn’t fun, like infant detergent, wipes and cloth diapers because I’m getting some baby clothes from friends with boys.

Pam’s Amazon Wish List for James Henry 🍼

And if you’re a more practical person, please consider gifting an amazon gift card or ca$h money to my PayPal. If my unemployment/my cousins being MIA lasts into September, I’ll build a gofundme or a youcaring to prep for baby and winter, but for now on short term emergency stuff, paypal is cool.

Pam’s paypal: paypal.me/PamJNew

Reblogs are deeply appreciated.

❤ Momma Pam and baby James